[22.11.2012] 「À propos du chant」
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Note: A day ago on Nov 21st, Kirisho posted a notification on his blog informing and apologizing for the postpone of Hitoriyogari 3, due to problems with his throat/ voice. The post can be found here
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22 Nov 2012 - About Singing
Kiss me~! Kiryuuin Shou here(^-^)
Regarding the postpone of Hitoriyogari 3, I’m very sorry that it has caused a lot of trouble and worry.
Thank you for all the messages of support.
To all the fans supporting me,
I will now write about the situation and my thoughts in detail.
It might become slightly long, but I’ll write about it now.
As I recall, the present time that I’m working hard in,
The present time that I’m working hard and all the years that I’ve been continuing to work hard,
it seems like the time has come for me to pay for the times that I pushed myself.
It’s ok if I don’t rest, because I want to make the band succeed.
So I thought as I continued to greedily ask for all the jobs that we could do.
So far, there has been a number of times where my throat has been hurting because of inflammations.
However, this time, it is an entirely different situation as compared to the past.
Starting from August this year, my voice didn’t come out well, and I was bogged down by high fever.
Of course, I went to a doctor, but the diagnosis at that time was that my epipharynx was inflamed.
Whether the inflammation was going to take a month or half a year, or in actual fact how long was it going to take to heal was unknown.
However, during this period, there were still, of course, many singing work to do,
and while I was aware of my own fear of not hitting high notes properly,
I continued singing a lot in festivals and fanclub tours even as my throat was still hurting.
As we entered the time for school festival tours, the truth was that my voice couldn’t make it anymore.
Even though there was also fatigue,
The fact that I couldn’t sing well anymore stressed me out heavily.
I continued singing everyday during school festivals, live television broadcasts, and events…
In addition to my fatigue, the fact that I wasn’t satisfied with my singing added more to my stress,
until finally my body couldn’t take it anymore and so leaving halfway through the broadcast of All Night Nippon, Tokoro-san brought me to the hospital.
At that time,
I thought,
I might have over-exerted myself a little…
During this period, we still had the recording for the new song, and I felt that my voice wasn’t like what it used to be.
I also travelled to and fro from the doctor’s to continue with treatment.
I was told by the doctor that my throat has already recovered, and that my vocal cords have also healed perfectly.
When I think about it now, that was something more frightening than anything else.
My vocal cords do not have any abnormality.
But even so, I couldn’t sing well at all.
It’s just a vague feeling but,
in the four months that my throat was hurting,
while I was scared and fearful of high notes,
as I tried to cover that up and continued singing,
I might have caused my vocals to change completely.
Yesterday, I listened to a recording of Dakara Bye Bye that was about 2 years ago in the original vocals, I compared to my current vocals as I sang Dakara Bye Bye again,
I fully realized the seriousness of (the damage done to) my vocals.
Different from the past completely,
I’m no longer able to sing the high notes after F.
When I compared and listened, it was a voice that I really did not want to believe was mine, and a voice that makes me want to cover my ears.
My throat was in a state more serious than what the staff and the people around me had expected,
but exceeding that was that it was even more serious than what I myself had expected.
Yesterday, after realizing that my throat was indeed way more serious I had thought,
I considered hard about what was really the most important to me.
What I arrived to was,
what I had decided long ago, to make good music, and to express (myself) through songs.
At that thought, I know I couldn’t spoil my throat anymore.
I have no idea whether I can still restore (things back to original) or not but I know if I continued singing like this, I would lose my whole voice.
This is something that I understood after so long,
that abnormalities with you throat is something that, more than the people around you, the doctor and your voice trainer, only you yourself know and feel the best.
If I carried on like this, not only my voice, but also everything that I have now, would be lost too.
As expected, for Golden Bomber, music
is the most crucial when it comes to live performances.
I considered seriously about whether I should lip-sync.
However, I just couldn’t go with that decision.
Up till now I was able to sing, and hence when I couldn’t the anxiety and stress would probably pile up,
and so perhaps I should quickly tell (about my situation) without hiding myself.
If I did that, things may still be unstable, but it’s better if I can reach (people) with my voice as it is now.
If even the singing is “air”, then there’s really no way to move people’s hearts during the lives.
As a result, I decided to delay (Hitoriyogari 3).
Why Hitoriyogari was the only one that got delayed was because it was near 2 hours of singing ballads only, and hence would be the easiest to be revealed, contributing to a live that’s the horrible result of challenging with just a horrible voice.
Frankly speaking, songs that are melodically intense are able to fool the audience to a certain extent.
On the other hand, ballads have fewer syllables and hence is unable to hide anything,
thus I reckon that it (Hitoriyogari) would be unpleasant to listen to after a while.
To be honest, to do a full set of ballads with this state is something scary considering the amount of stress I would be bogged down with after the performance has ended.
Even so, while I am very sorry,
there is really no choice but to make people hear the singing that has been doctored during the school festivals as well as event lives and television broadcasts,
and in consideration of many factors,
such as the decision to postpone, the worsening of my throat, the stress on my heart,
as I weighed all these factors, I have decided to postpone Hitoriyogari 3.
How should I fix and how am I going to heal - I still do not have a clear answer.
Today and yesterday, I contacted various people like my seniors and acquaintances who are vocalists to ask them for advice, opinions, recommendations for doctors or voice trainers.
As I take in all these information, I think I’ll go for long-term treatment (rehabilitation to correct this vice) as much as I can.
I finally started going for voice training recently,
but because I’ve been singing in a weird manner for 4 months and hence my vocals have become that way,
it’ll probably take at least 4 months (to revert).
I am very regretful that I had let this to worsen.
If I had told the people around me about the discomfort of my throat sooner, things would have been better,
I wanted to refrain from saying defeatist things about work but looks like that may be impossible.
I’ve had to push myself in order to get things done so far.
Maybe it’s because the situation has changed, or that people around me have stopped pointing out that my singing is bad,
when my throat really became bad, the moment I realized it was already rather late.
Never say die. Never be selfish.
To actually give in to this extent,
even if there would be a lot of trouble caused to people, at least (my) voice would be treated importantly way earlier.
I believe that I’ll still be able to make it, and hence I’ll continue with rehabilitation.
The fans who I’ve always been needing your care and who has been supporting me,
in order to reach you with good music and songs,
I probably would have to cut back on activities for a while,
but please believe in my ability and wait for me.
I’m very sorry that I always behave like a baby when it comes to important matters.
I will definitely, in return for all these insecurities that I have created, make everyone smile many many times more.
Did my Japanese become a little weird…? (((^-^)))laugh
It seems like I have become quite dark this time
From tomorrow onwards, I will become the same old me (^-^)
In actual fact, more than these recent days where I’ve been preparing unsteadily for the lives while being afraid of an unseen fear,
the present where i’ve decided to concentrate on singing and treating my throat gives me more of a peace of mind.
I won’t try to do the impossible anymore m(_ _)m
Oh right, 1st January next year our new single “Dance My Generation” ‘s preview video has been uploaded, so please take a look!
This new song “Dance My Generation” is luckily not too high keyed, and the climax of the song is half of the chorus, and hence singing wise it’s not too difficult, so I’m glad!
“Next week, there will be a very important announcement”
So I heard, but thankfully it’s not bad news…(^-^) It’s irritating to feel anxious, right? (^-^)ﾎﾉﾎﾞﾉ
To all the fans, to the members (of Golden Bomber), to people related, to all our friends, to everyone,
From now on too, Golden Bomber will be in your care.
nnbye! ⊂(^-^)⊃
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